Doing the mundane in a radical way
I’ve been cranky AF and also extremely self-aware that 99% of it is just me playing victim and letting the same ol’ fears get the best of me.
Old me would have taken this as evidence that “I don’t have what it takes”.
2022 Carolina sat with her own bullshit and unapologetically owned it for WEEKS before reaching any kind of resolution. It wasn’t pretty. Lots of days of feeling, looking, eating like a goblin. Hmmm. Hot dogs.
This challenge started and my mind started to get ahead of itself, trying to make this challenge THE THING that would make me or break me.
I AM COMING CLEAN WITH MY BIGGEST FLAW — I don’t like putting in the work when the outcome is uncertain. And I am especially like this when it comes to work sooooo can you see how I dig my own grave? 🙄
For contrast, you need to know that I made the decision to marry my husband within the first 7 days of meeting him. I didn’t know if it was going to work but fuck it, I WAS IN.
But for career stuff…oh man. I’m chicken shit. I wish someone could just give me the magical recipe 😭
I’m not here asking for advice. Just…hear me out. I had a little breakthrough. 💡
For two years, I’ve been throwing spaghetti at the wall because (insert all the mistakes you can do as an online creator).
I’ve only been able to keep going because I did the work to get to a place where I fully believe that I cannot fuck this up.
This self-confidence was hard won and this is what I want to teach. However, I’ve been stop and go with this idea (no regrets, I had to learn a lot more about myself so I could be of service to others)
I’ve been so obsessed with defining my angle. I thought it was a matter of filling out a worksheet, but at the core what I was really doing was questioning who I was, now that shame doesn’t control me.
On Sunday, as I was reflecting on my start of the year, I was finally able to tell myself a story that sticks. A story to get excited about the mundane. And that’s when it hit me.
What I want is to create a space where we can do the mental and emotional work to ENJOY the mundane (and painful) process of creating changes in our lives.
From a marketing perspective, this is the worse product ever. No easy steps. No overnight enlightenment. No magic pill.
We want the results now, but we’d rather skip steps.
We skip steps so we can skip the discomfort, and we don’t want the discomfort because then we’d have to admit that we don’t fully believe in ourselves…
…and the truth is that we don’t fully believe in ourselves because once upon a time we learned that who we are is not “okay”, and that story stuck.
Changing that story is not flashy. It is slow, mundane and while there might be moments of enlightenment, most of it is subtle.
So, I’m going to build a community to do the most mundane work in the most radical way.
I’m building what I wished I had when I was struggling.
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